Jan loves the kids!

ok, so i'm trying to meet my blog-a-day goal that i set for myself that i am starting to think was slightly unrealistic. but here we go.

my thought for the day is . . . "cherish the time you have with your children."

i know that seems simple and cliche, but as i was dropping my kiddies off at school this morning and we performed our morning ritual: Devyn kisses me on the cheek and throws his arm around my neck and says, "bye mom. have a good day." and i say i love you! have a good day devyn." then comes little Ari in her mousy little voice, "i love you mommy. have a good day. bye! i love you!" and she kisses me on my cheek, then she shoves her cheek into my mouth for a kiss. i suffocate a little. then they both hop out of the car and hit the sidewalk. one rolling a back pack, the other struggling with a back pack that is as big as she. Ari stops and turns around and waves at me then she blows me a kiss and blow her one back. and then all of a sudden everything just stopped.

it was as if the earth stopped spinning. the wind stopped blowing. and even for a second my heart stopped beating and i felt a sadness. i felt time leaving me. i caught a glimpse of my family watching Ari walk across the stage and receive her high school diploma and i was wondering where time had gone. where their lives had gone. how it all just flashed by me in an instance. and just a tear was about to cascade down my cheek . . . i snapped out of it.

i wanted to jump out of the driver's seat, run and grab my babies and squeeze them and never let go so that they would stop growing. i managed to keep it together as they walked into the building.

we might be watching a stupid kiddie movie or awful disney program together tonight though. all of us on the couch . . . under one blanket. =)